Holly Madison Reveals She Considered Suicide While Living At The Playboy Mansion; ‘I Just Couldn’t Take My Misery Anymore’

By Bindhu Mol. G | 1 year ago

Holly Madison revealed that she considered drowning herself in the bath while living at the Playboy Mansion as Hugh Hefner’s No. 1 girlfriend. Read to know more details.

According to People magazine, the “Girls Next Door” alum had disclosed her misery at the Playboy Mansion in her new book, “Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny.” Madison revealed that she thought of committing suicide while living at the Playboy Mansion in the depths of her despair as Hugh Hefner’s No. 1 girlfriend.


“But I grew to feel it was meant to lock me in,” Madison said, saying that she felt trapped inside the property.

The former reality star describes in detail the depths of her misery & depression while living at the Mansion by comparing it to a dark path without light at the end of the tunnel. She added that she contemplated to drown herself while taking a bath in 2002 as her misery & depression became so consuming.

“If I just put my head under water and take a deep breath in, it would all be over,” she said.

“Drowning myself seemed like the logical way to escape the ridiculous life I was leading. I just couldn’t take my misery anymore.”

When she considered committing suicide, she thought that no one would even miss her except for her family. She even felt that even Hugh Hefner would certainly never miss her, as she was just another warm body blonde for him.

Even though the reality show and pictures might give us the impression that that the girls inside the Playboy Mansion always lived a glitz and glamour life, Hefner, 89, allegedly pinned them to actually lead cutthroat lives. The gorgeous girls became incredibly insecure in their own skin, reports E! Online.

Madison is happy and thankful that she was able to share her miserable experience.

“If I sunk my head below the water and went to sleep, no one would ever know the truth,” she said.

Holly Madison’s life improved after leaving the Playboy Mansion – She got married to Pasquale Rotella and has a child.


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